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I’m usually not a tea person…but thank god for it this morning. I couldn’t have got out of bed without it. Off to run some errands and then the Philadelphia Flower Show : ) 

Okay…that’s over with. I don’t think I’ve been called a “bitch” in years. need to shake it off.  (I’m such a puss)

I know that you can’t help anyone when they’re in the midst of it…when they don’t want to change. Especially with an eating disorder. The more you push, the sicker they become. I’m such a mom sometimes. And jesus, I’m talking as if I’m recovered. How can you help someone when you’re still sick yourself? Oi.

venting some things out…

If I were to be honest with myself I’d say I’m really unhappy. Woke up at about one (wayyy too late). Ate lunch (chicken and broccoli). Threw it up. Ate half a burrito and a yogurt. Threw it up. And now I’m drinking a ‘monster’ to have a little bit of energy. I don’t know why I even bother eating. It’s such a waste of money and time. GOD. I could scream. 

Another thing that’s bothering me is these stupid pro-ana/pro-mia sites. Why in the world would you want to bring anyone else down with you? Someone, anyone, please enlighten me?